Plan ( Note to myself ) II

Life isn't a cookie cutter.

Of course, the pattern will have similar attributes like a well crafted path: finishing studies/graduating, find better job, get married, buy a house, have kids, grandkids,travel, haji, umrah master/phd degrees bla bla etc etc.

Typical huh?

If you decide to walk down the path, go ahead. No one says anything.
Last night was What if? between us. You know when you are married to someone on prompt basis, not really some long term goal in mind, anything can happen. Even when it comes the velocity of Typhoon Haiyan in Tacloban City, no one expected it can be that 350km/hour.
Same goes to my life. 
I believe the reluctant of NK to formalise our nuptial arrangement for Malaysia Government's comprehension tells a lot that he is not ready to commit that much. After so much of interrogation, he seemed quite hesitant to say how long he may stay here. My carrot and stick approach of the benefit of spousal visa even does not seem to interest him at all.
It is not that he doesnt want to be with me. He is aging. He is growing old.All the men in his family will have some life span between 55-60 years. All died for some mysterious reason, however having this before, he need all the years to retire for good and live to the fullest.
He just want to go back, that is all.
Breathing the mountain air, holding the cold snow. What can a Taliban guy do if he cannot see his own land, his beloved ones, all around him. I could not imagine myself to send the corpse to board from KLIA to Peshawar on Pakistani Airlines? It will definitely trigger many resided anger within the family itself.
On the other side, my heart get broken each day knowing i may have 6 years to just enjoy this kind of companionship, move on and do something better.
All that 6 years. Before the first son graduating medical school and be the sole breadwinner. I have realised the path chosen was my decision of some adventure I long for and that cookie cutter type isnt my preference to define what is life, after all.
I may have to do some adjustment of my plan.
The short 6 year type and what goes after. Giving my best shot. Live to the fullest, that should be my motto now.
Time to jot down some ideas.

That 6 year plan. Hey I will be 40 ok? Still young LOL.