Taman Negara
Akan menjadi bujang selama dua minggu. Fatiha balik kampung to entertain my beloved Granny.
Pada masa yang sama, saya akan ke Taman Negara hujung minggu, singgah santai melihat rakan-rakan myksr.net berkonvoi. Dalam hati mau ikut ride, tetapi kaki saya masih belum pulih sepenuhnya. Pakai court shoes masih terasa pedih la kan.
Bila singgah santai, saya tidak sepenuhnya melibatkan aktiviti kerana pada trip kali ini agak istimewa. Saya akan curi-curi balik melawat kampung dan saudara mara tercinta di Jerangsang, Benta dan Lipis... dan akan.....
membawa N bersama. Dia pun teruja. Sebab kami tahu selepas ini kami tidak akan dapat balik ke kampung ini bersama-sama sebagai pasangan hidup, Jadi road trip ini adalah penutup kepada bagaimana saya ingin menceritakan semula kehidupan saya sebelum kami bertemu pada 10 tahun dahulu.
Terima kasih kepada mak, adik, nenek dan anak saya yang memahami hasrat saya mengakhiri hari terakhir saya bersama N. Simpati mereka akan dihargai sampai bila-bila.
is this the person that you told me about the other night?
ReplyDeletemin, remember. you need to have a closure and you really need to move on.
to move on is to forget things. NOT everything, but some things :) tapi... sometimes mcm sayang pulak nak forget those things tu, hehe.. whatever it is, am agreeing with ur friend there, you need to have closure. kalo xde closure ni jd mcm aku nnti, that person keep on coming back walopun tau xboleh. hmm
ReplyDeleteMala dan Annur - This is the hardest break up, so far, knowing this person came back into my life after 10 years of separation, and we started to sort out things. So I was thinking u guys are right. A closure. Definitely not like I had last time, my usual sudden departure which really hurt some people and u know tarnishing my reputation as a very bad person. Perhaps I was being cursed too...
ReplyDeleteSo, my strategy - leaving this person macam u try to abandon your unwanted kitten. You bring it to a market place with some milk and food (let him get married so he has wife for comfort) and then, terus tak angkat call, tak reply sms langsung-langsung dan that's it. The End. Hoping he will forget me too slowly with the comfort of his young wife. The reason I am doing this is because he did not to send any borang nikah though the marriage will take place like 5 weeks from now and I now persuading him to do so with promise, that I will stay with him as the "other woman" after the marriage (sebenarnya aku terpaksa la berbohong!) to save this situation. So u can imagine how so hurtful it will be if I just leave him like for now. So I take this a graceful way of making my exit like what I always wanted -Baroness Schraeder's classy way of saying farewell, only aku punya cara agak sentap di penghujung tu. Apsal aku cita dalam blog ni ahh? Ahahahhahaha...blog aku lar kan ehheehehehheheh
moving on isn't about forgeting things - but to push things aside (not behind), as you need the lesson to remind you should a similar situation arises yet again.
ReplyDeletei applaud you for such bravery. and i know it is very difficult to let it go. but as i advised you earlier, and as a third party not romantically/emotionally involved, he won't do good to you and you deserve so much better.
if this is the best way to get your closure, so be it. but remember min, after the closure, you must really stay away from this person. the first 2 weeks would be the hardest, i tell you. been there done that. but if you can go through that 2 weeks, then you will be ok. you will definitely be ok.
take care min.