Moment of confusion

I have been with some dreams of having babies lately.

It was sad and tragic finding myself longing to start a family when my priorities in reality, are not incline with my silent desire.

A man's heart is like a foreign land. Adventerous, thrilling, mysterious yet very tempting. To see the rainbow over the sky and think it would last forever is another fallacy, fairy tale or simply suicidal. Only those who persevere will find the true happiness, and for those who don't, will be longing for home.

To find myself with a stranger in the early morning, and regret it has happened, would be a disaster. Abandoning the partner for having your own flesh and blood, your own bedroom, your own space, your own world when nobody can enter is simply selfish and cruel.

I dare not to break another man's heart, again, for the hundred time, caused it really hurts.

Not ready to demolish the wall, this is only a phase. Like morning fog, it will go away, just in time.